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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, DOCTORIZE FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 018.07.154.55 *** DOCTORIZE has posted an AUDIO MESSAGE. If you wish to listen, type LISTEN01. <USER> LISTEN01 AUDIO MESSAGE PLAYING... <doctorize> This is the line for Dr. Daniel Dickens. If you'd like to leave a message, please do so here. I'll try to get back to you as soon as possible! | ||||
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[Sorry, Danny. Just because he came looking for therapy, doesn't mean he's any good at actually receiving it.]
[Also, you know... he's extremely drunk.]
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... Oh, I'm sorry. Do you want me to tell you that you're a terrible person for having killed those people, regardless of whether or not you were in control of your actions? Or perhaps you'd like me to detail all the ways that this has hurt you, and yet no matter what you do, you'll never be able to take any of it back. Maybe they didn't have to die. Maybe you should be blamed entirely for even thinking they needed to, regardless of your mental state having been manipulated.
[Danny says all of this very casually, like as if he's talking about the weather. He even has the nerve to smile.]
Is that what you came here for? To hear someone cut you down like that? Because while it's not what you should hear, I can certainly do that too nonetheless, if you think that's what will help you move on with your life here.
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[His tone, when he speaks, is aggrieved, but at least he's not shouting and swearing any more.]
So what should I hear? Because "temporarily crazy, don't fret over it" isn't exactly super helpful either, you know.
God, I thought you were meant to be our actual decent therapist.
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I didn't say that. What I meant was that you weren't the only one who had experienced some rather gruesome things last week. As such, it would be rather hypocritical for someone to not be able to understand how you feel, or for this to even be the first time that this place has made one question themselves here. What you are feeling now is perfectly natural and worth acknowledging, despite the severity of your actions.
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I can't work like this. That's what it comes down to, okay? Every time I look at a scalpel I want to puke.
I don't want you to acknowledge it. I need you to fix it, okay? Before I start wondering if I should even be in a goddamn clinic at all.
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[A pause, before Danny speaks again.]
You said that looking at your tools makes you feel ill. Perhaps we should start with asking what you can do to help people for now without being in the operating room, until you're able to pick up a scalpel without assuming the worst of yourself and second-guessing what you plan on doing with it.
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...Okay. Okay, yeah.
Well, I can't do my half of the psychiatric slots right now, that's for sure. Diagnostics, I guess?
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That's a start. And if you need any assistance with anything here, there's always myself and Halloway that you can ask, too.
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Hampton-Crowe, I think you'll find. He got on my back last time I called him Halloway.
At least you've still got a good doctor on staff there.
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Oh? I'll have to make sure to keep that in mind, then.
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[probably should have guessed from the name tbh]
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I tried to talk him out of it, but there you go. Guess I can't do that, either. Heh.