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[peccatore]

[He attempts a smile, more out of politeness than anything else.]

And... If you think about it, it's pretty lucky, too. Ordinarily, a world with this general level of technological advancement might not have personal computers.

[doctorize]

Indeed! It's definitely something to be grateful for here.

[Danny makes a note of something here, before he speaks again.]

Is there anything else you enjoy doing here? Or anything in general that makes you happy or feel more at ease?

[peccatore]

Um...

[It takes him a little bit. It's... genuinely, strangely hard to come up with an answer.]

I like... swimming.

[doctorize]

... Did that start being an interest of yours before or after you started living here?

[Sorry, Danny can't help but ask.]

[peccatore]

[There's something... wry to the look on Marco's face.]

After. But I do really like it now.

I've done... a lot of thinking about this kind of thing. Probably too much thinking.

[doctorize]

I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing: given my own changes I've started to have, I think it's worth considering what may or may not become an interest or hobby that makes this change more enjoyable to adapt to rather than frightening, especially for newcomers here.

[peccatore]

I know. I know that, I'm really trying to keep it in mind going forward -

[He nods, a bit frantic.]

But you should know... just how much I've thought about this stuff. Gone over it again and again in my head, terrified that every new little thing meant I was losing my humanity.

[doctorize]

I see. If it's any consolation, you're not the only person who has thought about this frequently, or in the same amount of detail. It's scary, thinking about what you've gained or what you've lost, and whether or not what's left can still be called yours at the end of the day.

[peccatore]

Right.

But... But not everyone lets it drive them crazy. [There's unmistakably shame in his words. Marco is... still having trouble dealing with KNOWING that he has problems.]

[doctorize]

No, but that's what these sessions are for. There's no shame in taking the time to examine one's thoughts and emotions, and learning how to cope with them.

[peccatore]

... Examining my thoughts, huh?

If you're sure...